pep talk please? need courage to get 3-month test

I need to have my three month test done. Actually, my three month 2 & 1/2 week test, because I've been procrastinating.

My last possible exposure would have been 8/19. I didn't think of it as being a "possible exposure" at the time. I gave blood three weeks later. They do a PCR and antibody test, and I was not informed of any abnormal test results. But you just never know... Mistakes happen. What if the technician messed up? What if something was missed? It's not impossible.

At the time I gave blood, it didn't occur to me that I might be at risk. But I was sick for three weeks at the beginning of the semester (a productive cough and sinus congestion/pain), and it made me wonder... I also had a mild yeast infection, which cleared up with treatment. I haven't had one of those in four years. I had an antibody test done at the end of September and it was negative. Over the past month, I have developed a sore throat that waxes and wanes but will not go away. I went to the doctor, and it isn't strep or mono. He says that he thinks it's allergies (never before have I had allergies in the winter, or a sore throat as a symptom.) I was too cowardly to mention my fears about HIV.

This is all I can think about. I need to go in and get this test done. Part of me wants to get through the end of the semester and the holidays first. But I *know* that's not right.

How did you get up the courage to go in and have this test done when you were scared? I can't talk about this to anyone, and I am having such a hard time.

Thanks in advance for your help.

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