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psychological aspect of the window
#21221 - 08/22/01 10:24 AM
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It seems that now every time I turn on the tv, open a newspaper there is some story/article about hiv, or someone with hiv, or dying of aids, or a movie is on with Rock Hudson etc...even on friggin O'Rielly factor they were talking about it...I've been watching that show on and off for a year now, and can never remember it being discussed before.
I also seems that the further from my possible exposure date I get, the more my mind wants to go into denial and downplay the event.
Any of you experiencing these same type of feelings, or others similar?
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Me, every day after that stupid night 14 weeks ago.
On the TV, checking the clock and always giving me the bad lucky numbers (10 times a day). Friends talking about Magic.
Everything seems to be sign.
It is very true when you try to forget that day, you try to make sure that everything was ok and that there were no risk, but you see what your mind wants you to see.
Keep the faith my friend.
What was your risk?
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i definitly know what your talking about. It seems like everytime I turn on the television, read a magazine, i see something about HIV and aids. When I was waiting for my doctors appointment to get tested I grabbed a newsweek magazine and on the Cover there read "Aids at 20". I think we have seen reports and stuff on HIV but we never paid any attention because we never thought we would have to worry about it. If i would have educated myself on HIV i would not be in this window in the first place. Hell, I know someone who contracted HIV and im sure she never thought she would have to worry about it. Anyways Good Luck. I have 5 weeks left in this horrid window.
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thanks for your response...like you, I see a 'sign' at nearly every turn...I know I should not be so damn paranoid but I just can not help it...a week or so ago, was watching mtv, something stupid, I think real world, after that this new show came on, called 'Flipped'. Of course the theme was hiv...had one poor girl who was at risk go to a clinic and a home for aids patients to see what it would be like if she did not protect herself...god, why did I not see that before my stupid episode.
My actual risk is theoretically slight...I gave oral to a guy, unprotected, fortunately no ejaculate in my mouth, but some pre-cum. Every thing I read points the odds are way in my favor...but to me, it is still 50/50...either I got it, or I didn't.
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This is diffenately the best hiv site on the web. About six weeks ago I had a very low risk exposure (oral sex with a condom) with a prostitute that had a very good chance of having HIV. We actually did it in a park and was very dark, I believe I was only exposed to saliva (she licked my balls). THe thing is that my mind is playing tricks on me; what if I had a cut on my body, She did kissed my groin area?what if there was blood in the mouth? later that night i checked my groin area and there were no no cuts and no blood, I cleaned my self with a baby wipe (no red marks). Now as the weeks go by I feel as if I must have been infected. I keep hearing about these microscopic cuts. Just like you guys everything on television (I saw that MTV special "flipped") relates to hiv or AIDs. A few weeks ago I was walking down the street and a guy came up to me an asked me to sponsor him in an aids walk. I don't have to tell you how this freaked me out. Of course I gave him more money than usual.
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Don't you hate when that happens ?
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