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#206820 - 09/11/06 06:05 PM
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fine ill post my whole story tonight or tommorow morning and then ill stop unless i really need to post but just so you know i did get exposed to it by having unprotected sex with a girl ok. here is a short part of my story: i had unprotected sex with a girl who was negative at 3 months exactly, i got tewsted at 4-5 months and was negative, since my surgery i have been getting weird rash's and thts why ive been getting paranoid about everylittle thing, my g.f got tested again at 9 months and was negative, my ocd isnt as bad as you think bcuz i post to seek answers to every possibly detail i can before i go to my doctor, the needle i think isat on i wont say to much about bcuz i dont know if i did or not and its a long story, ide like to know info about the whole 5 year seroconverion thing, last thing is im loike this because my g,f was with 9 other guys before me so why wouldnt i be paranoid, my full story will be posted tonight or tommorow then ill stop posting unless i really have to and depiste my english being bad i still go to college and going to film school for my camera work so no n eed to insult my smarts but you can however crack w.e you want to at my ocd
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I understand OCD. I don't blame you at all for feeling paranoid, its just that people that don't understand obsessive worying get upset because it is so hard too understand someone asking excruciatingly detailed questions at different angles. Believe me, I did it all. In 1992 I had about 5 HIV tests, so many STD tests I can't even count, then I wanted a cytomegalo test and the lab people said "What's that?" Now, remember this was back in 1992, before the terms became well known. I had DNA tests, blood tests, and multiple pap smears - maybe 7. I called the CDC and was asking what populations of people in what parts of California had HIV (because I had unprotected sex with a guy from CA). And this went on for years - YEARS. I exhausted myself for years. From 2000-2004 I had therapy for OCD (in 2001 I was 85 lbs - lack of eating from worrying). And you want the kicker? I still kinda wonder if I don't REALLY have OCD. I often think that I am normal, and its the rest of the world that is not normal, they should be worrying like me.
Believe me now?!
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I would suggest stop testing. You have cleared yourself of ANY chance of having HIV. Your test at 4 months and your g/f test at 9 months clears you. You dont have HIV and you cant get it from your g/f because she is negative(post your relationship). There is no such thing as 5 year seroconversion unless you have a seriously depleted immune system and even then I HIGHLY doubt the story(chemo. IV drug use) .
What I think you need to do (no disrespect) is see a counsellor/mental health professional and see a dermatologist about the rash. I as well have OCD and have been where you are. It seems like there is no way you dont have HIV and in the future you will look back and say "Why did I do that to myself" You needle stick portion holds virtually no chance of transmissions as the needle would of had to be just dropped and you stick yourself right into your skin and the needle have enough of the virus to infect you. No chance my friend and ALSO you dont even know if you had a needle stick.
Be well my friend.
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Anon is right. The hardest thing to do is to STOP testing. And it is the RIGHT thing to do. You're negative for HIV.
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