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scared college student.... again.... please help
#196351 - 06/16/06 11:09 AM
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I posted awhile back my fears of HIV and there were a few responses that helped ease my mind... for a little... but now I'm so scared again... please help me out.
In March I started a sexual relationship with a friend of a friend. We had protected intercourse, but we did unprotected oral sex, but he didn't ejaculate in my mouth. A week and a half later, I became very ill. I was weak, tired, had a fever and my tonsil was swollen wtih white spots on it. I went to the hospital and I was tested for mono and strep and it was neither. I have always had issues with my tonsils though ever since I was little, so I didn't really think anything of it until I read symptoms online and realized that they were symptoms of HIV. I know what the symptoms are so common, but I have been obsessed with worry ever since. Things that have happened in the past month are that I had a yeast infection (I have never had one before and I know its common for women, but it scared me) and my tongue has been very pale. I showed my mom my tongue (I'm home for summer break) and she said that it looked white coated but i'ts really not that bad (this just happened this week when I also had a cold and she said it might be because of that). I also developed a cold sore a little over a week ago, and it has finally gone away but I have developed another one this morning. Again, I get cold sores frequently, and I think maybe this is from all the stress I have been causing myself, but I also fear that it's because of HIV.
I want to get tested, but there are no testing sites around where I live because I come from a very small town. I've read places that people who are so worried about HIV cause themselves to see all these symptoms, and I know I am one of them. I looked it up one day and saw that impaired vision could happen, and the next day my vision was blurry. I know I'm a hypochondriac, but I'm only 19... I'm scared and I don't know what to do. I have about 2 months left until I go back to school, and I can definitely get tested there.
Am I right about just being paranoid or should I be concerned? I'm so tired of worrying about this, of looking in the mirror every single day, scared that my tongue is too white or that I have another coldsore because my immune system isn't working right. Please help me.
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your local drug store probably carries the home access test. Also, if ya can drive to a bigger town to go to the mall, ya can drive there for an HIV test. a town so small it has a college but no where to test ya for HIV?.....I come from small town america, no college here, but can get an HIV if i really want to.
if your fears are overcoming you, if they keep coming back to control your mental/emotional state....go see a counselor*
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No... there is no college in my town... I'm home for summer break from college. I'm saying that I could get tested when I go back. What I'm wondering is if I really should really legitimiately worry now or if I'm just being paranoid and I can afford to wait until I get back, which would be much easier because there are testing places there...
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There are no documented cases of getting HIV through giving a blow job (especially with no ejac). I don't think you'll be the first. Could it happen? We cant give you the defenite NO that you are looking for, but we can give you reassurance that the chances are CRAZY SMALL, NEXT TO NOTHING.
If I were you, I'd buy an HIV test at Walgreens (Home Access) and be done with it. I think you'd be fine to wait unti lthe schjool year, but if this will relieve your stress, do it now. Who wants to spend the summer worrying? The stress will give you more cold sores, and that will stress you out more b/c you'll think it's HIV.
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Hey! You sound exactly like me. I slept with a guy 5 times that I hardly knew months ago. We used condoms every time, and he never ejaculated, except once, where he did it manually, externally, and some got on me. I never thought about risk at all, until just in the past few weeks, when I started learning info about HIV/AIDS.
I started freiking out cuz I was sick and had a lingering cough, and that my lymph nodes were swollen. Went to the doc, couldnt really treat me for anything. Now im sick again with an ear infection and a sore throat, and diarreah. Im freiking out about every possible symptom, that it actually gives me the shakes sometimes when i think about it. I also catch myself examining closely in the mirror, and picturing scenarios of me becoming positive...its terrifying. Anyways, went for a test last week, so Im waiting for the results, and in limbo. Logic tells me im crazy, but I just can't shake the fear, like you.
I suggest at least trying the home test for now, and then taking a road trip to the closest place where they do testing. It'll calm your nerves just having a doctor reaffirm it is unlikely you have HIV. If you do the home test, it will calm your nerves until the results from the clinic come back, but if your anything like me, I would make the effort to find a clinic...for your own sanity. But seriously, your probably totally fine. Its really hard for females to become HIV-positive. Also, you could contact the guy, even by e-mail, and casually ask him if he's ever been tested for anything. Just say you were going for blood tests, and you need to know if your at risk for anything. I did that, and it helped.
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