Took all the major tests! - TheBody.com's Bulletin Boards

Here's my personal story. It's kinda long. If you're interested, I know some if not most can Identify with the feeling. Here goes:

I never knew I would be in this situation. I thought I was better than that. Anyways, last April I was in Mexico for a 50 mile bike run which I completed. So I was feeling mighty good. So I had to a bar where I hooked up with a female prostitute and performed oral sex on her. I quickly came to my senses and stopped! I didn't see any blood or bumps on her so I thought It was pretty low risk. My gums weren;t bleeding and I spit out whatever was in my mouth. 3 weeks later I tested for HIV for the heck of it, it came back negative. So I was pretty relieved. 2 months later, when my hell began, I started getting a sore throat, became fatigue easily, and itchy rectum & groin area. So I went to the doctor and demanded to be tested for HIV, HEP B, HEP C, Syphillis, Gonorrhea, Chlamydia and it came back negative except for high cholestrol. It gave me peace of mind and I was thankful to God, but they recommended I get tested again at 6 months for HIV and Syphillis because it was done too early. That's when things my life went upside down. I started becoming an HIV internet junkie, because I wanted to know if my symptoms were linked to HIV. The more I started to surf the more I got obsessed with the window periods and different strains not showing up on antibody tests, delayed seroconversion, coinfections, stats on conversion, stories of late conversions, and anything and everything on hiv and other std's. Pretty soon, I thought I was an expert on this disease and felt that I was HIV +. This practically ruined my whole outlook on life. Before all this I was so carefree (loved sex) and laughed all the time, just loved having fun. Now I was a walking zombie. It effected my work, my relationship, friends, families saw that I was depressed, didn't like to do anything but stay home and sleep and go on the net and read about HIV issues and other STD's as coinfections. I was already mentally preparing myself for the positive results. Making major life changes, even contemplating death. It was so so hard waiting for the 3 months period to pass. I didn't want to take the test because I knew what the outcome would be so I continued on with my state of depression and stress. I was approaching the 5 months mark, I was experiencing other symptoms which I thought was related. I lost 12 pounds, muscle aches, rashes, continuous diarrhea, and light stool. To add to this, I thought I pass someting on to my girlfriend and she was complaining of certain symptoms. I just knew for sure I had HIV and all the other STD viruses. I know the symptoms and my what my body is telling me. So at 5 months I had all my previous tests repeated, plus they checked my liver, kidney, thyroid, for mono. They all came back negative, the only thing they did was give me Hep B vaccine. You'd think I was happy. I wasn't satisfied, because of what I read on the net stating that 6 months was the most accurate. I even thought that my doctor didn't want to tell me I was really positive because it would cost too much to treat. I was thinking alot of non-sense, but to me it made perfect sense. So for a whole month I put myself through the torture of playing the waiting game. At 6 months I tested at a local clinic for HIV, Syphillis, oral & genital Gon/Clyamdia and guess what....

IT CAME BACK NEGATIVE TODAY!!! I'm so happy now! I thought I was the exception. Some symptoms still exist but I know it's not HIV related, but I know with time and maybe treatment they'll resolve. Main thing is I can put my life back together! The whole reason why I'm sharing this would you is to let you know that symptoms might have been caused, probably due to stress or something unrelated to HIV. And that you need to trust your test results whether you do it at 3 months or 6 months (which I think is a personal issue=whatever makes you comfortable with). I think boards and websites like this help. It helped me! For all those in the window period. Don't lose hope and pray! It worked for me and it'll work for you! Sorry for the long posts but I needed to vent a sigh of relief and to help those who are going through this because it truly is a burden. I hope other people don't have to go though this. Well enough of this, God bless to everyone and to all the regulars on here. keep up the good work, you give hope to those who have none! Thank!!! If anyone has any questions or if I can help, let me know!

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