Hello Doc, I am almost 30 (and gay) and yesterday I had a second sexual experience. I was always afraid of HiV so never ventured out (still am). Yesterday night I visited this couple (who said they are DDF). They sucked my dick (I have read that this is safe). I licked their dicks (so 2 disks), mostly shafts. I was clearly avoiding the heads but probably licked them about 5-6 times when going from side to side. I also avoided taking the dicks in my mouth (i.e. between my lips). I think the chances of me getting HiV is very low but I am still freaking out. I have been up the whole night. Any insight would be great. I am not out yet, so talking to any one else is not an option. Thanks a lot!

Hi,

You are correct. The HIV-acquisition risk from the activities you describe is very low. See link below. Now what's this nonsense about talking to someone not being an option??? You're gay, closeted, 30-years-old, have only had two sexual experiences and are "always afraid of HIV"!!! If that doesn't scream "I need a therapist," I don't know what does! Your irrational worries about HIV are most likely linked to more complex issues, such as guilt, sexual orientation and being closeted. Far from "talking to someone not being an option", I think talking to a therapist would be the wisest thing you could do!

Dr. Bob