Apr 22, 2010
I have been feeling real fatigued so lately i went to the doctor and they drew blood. the tests came back positive for the h i v virus. i contracted it i think when i was married. how do i tell my ex she might have aids
Response from Dr. Frascino
Disclosure is never easy. We have an entire chapter on the subject in the archives of the forum Safer Sex and HIV Prevention. Have a look.
I would encourage a direct face-to-face conversation. However, if you can't or won't do that, there are other means of partner notification through your local health department or even anonymous partner notification. (See below.)
I would suggest you read through the "Just Diagnosed" section of this Web site. It can be accessed on The Body's homepage.
I'm here if you need me, OK?
Should he disclose to all past partners? Apr 4, 2010
In a poz forum on another site I recently got blasted for telling a recent HIVer that I didn't think he needed to call all his past tricks with his new status update since he said he'd been safe (He thinks he got HIV from a tattoo parlor). Many of the poz guys said all of his recent tricks should immediately be tested even though he said he never had unprotected sex. If that is true, do negative guys have to get tested every single time they have sex with a positive guy? I thought they were being a bit dramatic, which did not go over well either. Your thoughts?
Response from Dr. Frascino
I'll make several quick points:
1. It's extremely unlikely the recent HIVer contracted HIV from a tattoo parlor!
2. It's certainly desirable for HIVers to notify any partners who may have been at risk. However, it's also important to note that it takes two to do the unsafe horizontal hula and the entire burden of HIV prevention should not be placed on those who are positively charged. That said, I also want to mention that if someone is reluctant to disclose his status or to personally notify partners, anonymous partner notification is always available (see below.)
3. As for the forum guys being "a bit dramatic," isn't that part of the fun of those forums? Cosmic fabulosity and/or extreme drama are rampant in cyberspace. Don't take it personally, OK?
Witholding the truth? (DISCLOSURE, INSPOT.ORG, 2009 ) Nov 4, 2009
Last weekend, I went to a great Halloween party with a bunch of friends, and we all got pretty drunk. I remember what happened most of the night, but there are some details that I do not remember. One of the things that I do remember was meeting this good looking guy. I recall flirting, dancing, and getting in a cab with him. We went back to his place; we got naked; we started fooling around. The guy asked me if he could fuck me. I said yes. He then asked me if I was healthy. I hesitated for a second, and then said, yes. I thought, well, I AM healthy. I am a healthy HIV positive person-- but deep inside I knew he was really asking me about my HIV status. He took out a condom, and I put it on him. He fucked me pretty hard. The condom broke I learned the next morning. I blacked out a couple of times througout the night.
When I woke up the next morning, it took me a few minutes to adjust and recognize the person next to me and the place I was in. Forget his name. I had to look at the address label on one of his magazines in the bathroom to remember his name.
Finally, it all started to come back. Panic settled. Once sober, I realized I had not beencompletelyhonest with this guy. I was mortified. I had justified my answer with the notion that I was indeed healthy not sickbut I wasnt (not according to his vocabulary) Now he was telling me about the condom breaking.
I felt like such an a**hole. He was being honest and responsible. He told me what happened with the condom; he told me again that he was healthy and that he had recently been tested; He asked me again if I was healthy. This time I mumbled no. My answer was either not heard or was confused with another question I did my best to cross-talk, and was able to change the subject before he could ask again. I thought, ok, one-night stand, get dress, move, leave before he asks more questions. But before I got to the door he asked me if he could see me again. I wanted to say no, but like a moron I said sure. I did like him, but whatever chance I had to get to know this person was now ruined. I wrote my email address on a piece of paper and left. When I got home I was overwhelmed with sadness and guilt. Ive been having a hard time sleeping ever since. I know we tried to protect ourselves I know the chances for infection are very small, but still, who in the hell am I to decide about his (or anybody elses) health? He had the right to know. I feel that I was as reckless as a drunk driver.
Couple of days later, he wrote. He told me he had a great time. He wants to get together again. I know the simplest thing to do is say no or ignore him. My friends tell me to shut my mouth. That it is too late. I would make things worse if I talk now. So this is my dilemma. Should I remain silent and hope that nothing bad happens (to his health)? Or Should I come clean and tell him the truth? Forget about developing any type of friendship with this guy. Ill be lucky if he doesnt punch me in the face.
With this experience, I realize how deeply ashamed I still am of my HIV status. I am still very angry at myself for having been infected. I crave acceptance and fear rejection so much that I put myself in these difficult situations. I thought I was a decent person, but with this experience I feel as if I have lost my morals and sense of decency. Am I being overdramatic? Perhaps. But I am deeply disturbed about my behavior. I dont have the right to decide for others. As for my drinking, well, I guess that doesnt help either.
Any words of wisdow would be truly appreciated.
Response from Dr. Frascino
Disclosure is never easy. You certainly are not alone in fearing rejection and craving acceptance.
I agree that your deception was wrong; however, I do not believe you have lost your morals or sense of decency. Your intense guilt is testament to your basic moral character.
What should you do now? I think you already know the answer. I do not agree with your friends! If the situation were reversed, wouldn't you want to know the truth? I believe you need to come clean, admit your mistake and accept the consequences of your actions. A face-to-face meeting with a sincere apology would be best; however, if you can't muster up the courage for a personal interaction, you should at least notify him anonymously via an anonymous partner-notification program. "Inspot" works well. See below. Leveling with your Halloween trick is not only the best way to deal with your guilt; it's also the right thing to do.
How do I anonymously tell a partner I may have exposed him to an STD??? (INSPOT.ORG) May 5, 2009
HELP!!!! I did something stupid and now I've got syphlis!!!! I'm still waiting for my HIV test!!! What really worries me is that I've had sex with several friends and we sort of forgot to use a condom. But I know these guys really well and know they are healthy and usually play safe. I just can't tell them in person that I have syphilis and my health department wants to know my name. I don't trust them to keep the information confidential if I give them these guys names. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Response from Dr. Frascino
Hi Too-Embarrassed-To-Tell-Them Guy,
You sort of forgot to use a condom???????? Hmmmmm.....Early Alzheimer's I presume, right? Otherwise I'm sure you wouldn't take such a risk. (Learning a lesson like this the hard way is indeed painful and I'm not only talking about the walloping dose of penicillin that's going to be injected into your butt, either! I'm hopeful your experience will make others think twice before "sort of forgetting to use a condom", even with friends.)
Actually there is a way to notify your contacts! Check out the Web site called InSpot.org. There you can send an anonymous e-mail to your sexual partners advising them they may have been exposed to an STD. Yes, it's truly anonymous and cannot be traced back to you. There are a variety of very simple messages to send. My favorite is "I got screwed while screwing, you might have too." Dr. Bob says, "Check it out!" Don't delay! Your contacts need to be told and treated ASAP!
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