Worried about feeling fine
May 5, 2012
I was recently diagnosed HIV+ with AIDS about a month ago (at my request for an STD test). My CD4 count was about 150 and my viral load was high (about 1.5 million). I started Truvada/Prezista/Norvir about 2 weeks ago and have no side effects so far.
My problem is that I feel fine. In fact, I feel better than fine. I haven't felt this well and energetic in a while (perhaps it is the pills -- psychosomatic or somatopsychic, I do not know -- but a benefit is benefit, no matter the cause!).
However, I feel like I'm not supposed to feel fine; or that feeling fine is somehow wrong. Is it OK to feel fine? to feel well? Am I supposed to feel sick?
What is normal here..?
Unsure how to feel anymore,
Response from Dr. Fawcett
Thanks for writing with this comment. There is no one way to predict what someone will feel (or not feel) with the virus or the medication. Many people experience minor complications such as stomach upset when they begin meds and others, such as yourself, do not. There are no "shoulds." I certainly wouldn't spoil good feelings by worrying about them!
As you note, the mind and body are one and expectations can dramatically influence how we react to situations or medications. Concern about possible exposure to HIV often produces symptoms that replicate those experienced by newly-infected persons. Initially feeling better is less common, but not unheard of. For more information about the experience of starting meds see TheBody's section on this topic here.
The bottom line is to continue to be aware of your body and emotional state and, above all, to enjoy feeling well.
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