dear dr As a child I was sexually abused for about 5 years by a family friend who later died of a "mysterious disease" In my last year of high school I found out I was hiv+. I tried to commit suicide. A year later my mother died of hiv and I later founf out that my two younger sister aged 5& 11 were also postive. Now I am so helpless as I am scared that if I pass away or get sick no one will take care of them. Also I have these moments were I just break down and cry endlessly for no apparent reason.Past and present emotions become so overwhelming.Its hard to keep a positive mind when situations difficult times never seem to end.I can handle having HIV but its difficult with all these emotional baggage that i cant let go off.I try to lead a positive life, l go to the gym, practice yoga etc. but the psychologiacl scars keep pulling me back. Its affecting even my work life. I am 21 years old.

It's understandable that your childhood experiences continue to have an effect on you. Early childhood sexual abuse can lead to depression and other psychologically painful reactions. You should consider getting some psychological treatment from a mental health professional with training and experience in treating persons with a history of sexual abuse.